Don't Flatter Yourself SweetHeart..

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-31T19:20:00

2004-09-01T02:22:24Z

Yesterday we went to my uncles to babysit and help with baby leylah. We ended up spending the night there and me and Douyg stayed up practically all night timing and getting ready for the feedings. Since she is considered a pre-mature baby (even though she was only a month early) she doesnt have the whole sucking capablity yet, So ever 2 hours we feed her with a syringe and a tube and you tape the tube to your finger and put your finger in her mouth so that she learns to suck. omg, shes like the best baby. She never ever cries, not since she came home from the hospital. Most of the time she just sleeps lol, its hard to keep her awake during feedings because shes soo tired.

Poor baby leylah has jhonndis which is basically just a thing where her pigments are off. Its not anything bad, well it is but its very common most babies get it when they are premees and first born. So tonight she has to stay in the hospital in a tanning bed like thing to get sun so that the yellowish pigment color goes away. I dont even see the yellow pigment, to me she looks like a healthy beautiful baby girl.

We have to go back to my uncles house so that we can finish packing because tomorow the movers are coming to move them into their new house. Im so excited for them, this is like a whole new begining. My uncle is really playing up to the protective father roll. I think its really cute.

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-30T01:24:00

2004-08-30T08:25:40Z

Well i havent written in here for awhile but i guess i should start now since i had an awesome weekend!

Okay, Friday I went to work with Hayward and around like 4ish Doug (my uncle) called saying that his wife Deema was in labor. I was soo excited to see the baby and be there at the hospital but we couldnt leave because we were still working till 5:30 and also because all the sudden it got extremely busy and Duane had to make a key for a corvette engintion and make a key for a lock and i had to cut a billion keys and so we ended up being at the shop till 7:30! So, we came home and changed and left to the hospital. Deema was only in labor for 5 hours, (thats like nothing,lucky) and so shortly after we got there the baby arrived! It was a girl! I was so amazed with how beautiful she already was. I mean you see babies being obrn on tv, and you hear about your friends and their families having a baby, but when it happens in your family its just a memory that just stays forever, and that you could never re-live. She was born at La Jolla Scripps Hospital on Aug. 27th a month early exactly. Her name is Leyla Nicole Hayward. Leyla said (Lay-Lah). She was 6.5 lbs and 18 inches long. Omg, shes adorable.
I love her so much.

Saturday, i went to Tashas and we went to the Del Mar Horse races. It was soo much fun! The track goes around in a oval shape and theres an underground tunnel that leads to the middle of the horse track and it was filled with tons of things for kids to do and stuff, but me and tasha had to check it out! We got our face painted lol (woot woot) and walked around and stuff and just had tons of fun. After that Tasha and I just hung out in her room and then we ate really yummy pizza, and watched fuse and stuff. We made some new inside jokes and we talked to Justin for awhile.

Sunday, well Hayward was suppose to pick me up from tashas at like 10 but of course everything went wrong and we were all late lol. Anyways though, we went to this "local 10" picnic thing and tasha came and it rocked...They had some contests and they had a watermelon eating contest and my sister was going to be in it and i kept begging tasha to be because i wanted to but like i hate watermelon i just think its nasty, but anyways i during the last minute decide to be in it just for the hell of it and see how well i do. Okay well the kids went first and Breanna was suppose to be in that compition but they didnt have enoujgh so she just did the adult one or was going to but then they didnt have enough for everyone but i stayed and tasha and breanna got kicked out haha. Then they pull out this huuugggeee ass watermelon pieces like huge and so i was like okay well i have to win because i dont want oine of these adults to win lol but it was hilarous because hayward was in the contest and she had the biggest piece omg it was huge lol Tasha could tell ya. So they say go and im on my knees eating this nasty ass watermelon and i dont want to lose because im rele compitive so im choppin it down and like i eat a lot of it and tthen i could start tasting the watermelon and the smell of it and i was like throwing it back up but i didnt want to lose so i decided to keep swallowing it back down (it was nasty) and tasha and breanna were like "go sierra your in the lead!! goo goo gooo!" so it encouraged me but then all the sudden i was like gonna puke so i gopt up and like walked away for a secound then i was like wtf am i thinking? I cant just walk away so i jumped back in the race still in lead and i just kept eating till i about died of watermelon inhalation. I would have sacked that rqace if i liked watermelon. Oh well whatever. Then me and Tasha and Breanna went into the bay and Anton came in and yeah, whatever he was being a snotball. Then we went to visit Leyla and stuff and ate the caferteria food (it was nasty.) Then Leyla and Deema and Doug went home tonight so we had to help them move all their stuff to their new apartment and stuff and it was cool, THey get their new house on the 1st so thats good.

Katie called me when i was at the hospital visting leyla.She asked me a question about if the dear somebody post i wrote was about her because if it was thats talking shit. well katie tihs is to you if your reading this, Dear Somebosy is a place where you get your feelings out without talking shit and without you actually telling the person. Therefor even if it was to you, you would never know, nor would anyone else know who it was too. Yes there is a post on there about you, no that one was not about you, so stop your complaining.

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-25T22:17:00

2004-08-26T05:17:16Z

CRAZY EYES
Person i like
The person who i like is Tasha Neu Some of the reasons i like her is she is nice she is really fun to talk to she is hott there r more reasons ask me if u wanna no them and i cant wait to see her at school

lmao tasha? stalker....

change your hair style

clothes

phone number

and wear dark goth make up *thumbs up* tihngs will change!

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-22T16:54:00

2004-08-22T23:54:59Z

LAST PERSON WHO...
x. Slept in your bed: Breanna
x. Saw you cry: Breanna
x. Made you cry: Let's not go there.
x. Spent the night with: Katie and Tasha!
x. You shared a drink with: Breanna
x. You went to the movies with: Breanna (lol shes my sister we do a lot togetha!)
x. You went to the mall with:Katie and Tasha
x. Sent you an email: idk
x. You kissed: My Grandma when i left her house

HAVE YOU EVER...
x. Said "I Love You" and meant it: Yes.
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: Oddly, Yes..just secounds ago.
x. Been to New York:No ...=(
x. Florida: No, wouldnt want to right now with the storms.
x. California: born and raised.
x. Hawaii: No. But I so want to.
x. Mexico: Who lives in Cali and hasnt been there?!
x. China: No i want to some day though
x. Canada: No
x. Danced naked: Yeah while goin g Kaerra...
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: No.
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: not really
x. Had an imaginary friend: Yeah Martha lol remeber katie?

RANDOM
x. Red or blue: Red
x. Spring or Fall: Fall. I love Fall so much.
x. Are you bored: Yes. Actually I am
x. Last noise you heard: Birds in the yard chripping.
x. Last time you went out of the state: Went to Delaware to see my dad, went to mexico last week.
x. What book are you reading now:Lovely Bones
x. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: "What time is it?"
x. How many rings before you answer: 2 but if I am excited 1
x. Future daughter's name: not sure, have to decide when it happens.
x. Future son's name: same
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: nope
x. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be: Teacher, Child abuse activist.
x. Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous:Righty! And proud of it! YEAH!
x. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys: No i use which ever finger is closes, why have a certain order?
x. What's under your bed: old magazines, pictures,and my backpack from last year filled with school work.
x. College plans: SDSU
x. Piercings: None. ears
x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: maybe

EXTRA STUFF
x. Do you do drugs: Nope
x. Do you drink: have before
x. Who is your best friend: katie
x. What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use: whatever i pick up.
x. What are you most scared of: falling off of a muontain or bridge.
x. What clothes do you sleep in: whatever i feel like.
x. Who is the last person who called you: Arbernita
x. Where do you want to get married: I would decide when it happens
x. Who do you really hate: D'andre
x. Favorite number: 27
x. What type automobile do you drive: none
x. Are you timely or always late: both
x. Do you have a job: Not rela
x. Do you like being around people: Yes. I love being with people
x. Best feeling in the world: Being with my friends and making them smile.
x. Are you a health freak:not really.

STUFF
x. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: Of course.
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: YES
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: umm not really.
x. Are you lonely right now:no breanna is next to me.
x. Ever afraid you'll never get married: Not really, the time will come.
x. Ever want kids? Of course!

FAVORITE
x. Room in house: My room.
x. Type(s) of music: I like just about everything but jazz and classical.
x. Band: Matchbook Romance
x. Memory: When i saw my dad for the first time in a 167469 years.
x. Day of the week: Friday
x. Color: green and pink
x. Perfume or cologne: Adidas for her

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
x. Cried: Yes
x. Bought something: Yes i bought nachos at target yesterday
x. Gotten sick: No
x. Sung: Of course.
x. Said "I Love You": Uh huh
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: Yep
x. Met someone new: Yes, i played I-spy with a little girl waiting for her moms hair to be cut.
x. Moved on: No.
x. Talked to someone: Yes
x. Missed someone: Yes.
x. Hugged someone: My sister
x. Kissed someone: No.
x. Fought with your parents: Yeah all the time.
x. Dreamt about someone you can't be with: no
x. Had a lot of sleep: lol 4 in the morning till 1 pm ..i know i have bad sleeping habits

HAVE YOU EVER...
been drunk - no
smoked pot - no
kissed a member of the opposite sex - yeah
kissed a member of the same sex -no
crashed a friend's car - nope
ridden in a taxi - yeah
had anal sex - um no. lol
been in love - oh yea.
had sex in public -no
been dumped - no
shoplifted - Never.
been fired - Nope
been in a fist fight - Yeah with Chelsea.. err i hate that bitch.
had a threesome - no
snuck out of my parent's house - no
been tied up (sexually) - oh yeah by tasha ;) lmao jk..
been caught masturbating - Eww, no!
pissed on myself - when i was little?
had sex with a member of the same sex - no
been arrested - been in the back of a cop car.
made out with a stranger - no
stole something from my job - No
celebrated new years in time square - nope
gone on a blind date - nope
lied to a friend - don't we all sometimes?
had a crush on a teacher - no
been to europe - I wish.
skipped school - yea
slept with a co-worker - No
cut myself on purpose - nope
had sex at the office - what?
been married - no
had children - no
stripped at a party -kaerra count?
literally crawled to your house drunk, even if just from across the street -Ok. this is stupid
jumped off a bridge - nope
gone surfing - yeah, and stole a surfers board on accident member katie omgah..
had a mullet - ew. gross
peed in public - yuck

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-22T00:25:00

2004-08-22T07:26:10Z

Dear Somebody,

You stole my heart and I'd give anything to make you feel the same.

Just so you know the wish was about you. You were right, I just didnt want to admidt it to you.

The real reason that i didnt leave a message on your voice mail is because i didnt want you to think that im obsessed with you, even though i am.

Okay, I admidt it ... Im in ♥love♥ with you.

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-21T19:16:00

2004-08-22T02:17:11Z

My family is nuts. My aunt pat just called from Salt Lake City saying that they're having a family runion and they want me and my grandma to be there. okay let me just hop on a plane right now, and fly my ass all the way to Salt Lake City so i can see people who dont even bother to call me or see how im doing or come to our family functions. HAH...

I kinda wish i could go though because it wuold be spontaneous and fun. I mean how many times in your life is their family reunions with a days notice. Plus i would like to see Ky and Hailey and My aunt Casey and my great grandma. I know it would all turn to hell because my family doesnt necessarily all get along. Believe me its just not my local family here:Doug,Douglas,my mom,Deema and Hayward...theres much more drama behind even that drama.

I think that my family should be on a sitcom lol...it would be intirely hilarous. Katie and Tasha have seen some of the things that have gone on lol Tasha expecially.. lmao remeber doug smashing in the filing cabniet! that was so funny. Anyways yeah, it would be awesome to watch my family make asses of themselves on t.v maybe then they would all come to reality and realize the hell they put people through. I only have 4 more forced years with them though, thank the lord.

Deemas gonna have her baby soon and im soo excited. I love babies they're so cute. I just wonder what shes going to look like, my uncle has blonde hair and blue eyes and his wife is jordan with dark brown hair and brown eyes. She'll probably have dark or carmel skin like douglas, who knows ... maybe not.

Oh yes, Correction... me and julia are part of the sheman-woman men haters. I think i got it lol...sorry jules! Me and her need ta hang without anyone else because we never get one on one time. I miss her!!! Oh yeah, julia hows the crabs going? lmao jk.

My moms at a wedding and i hope she doesnt get any ideas about marrying Eric from this wedding. Ohhh gahh...that would be the ultimate kick in the butt. *knock on wood*. I thought i was going to be able to see Kathy and Laamars daughter after the wedding but shes not aloud to go to the recption either. Who knows why, but if my mom and Eric got married they'd probably do the same thing. Gahh...

I was suppose to look at cell phones today but hayward has been sick so i didnt stress her about it. I guess its fine, Maybe we can go tommmorow, who knows.

I missed Ashlee Simpson. I said i would go with Jesse but it was so expensive just to go to sea world once. I feel bad and i havent talked to him since then and ahhh i miss him. Shh...dont tell.

I cant wait till highschool starts, seeing katie try out and everything i realized that its all coming up and its soo exciting. I get to meet totally new people and i get to be an exchange student and go through all that stuff, and i get to disect (spelling?) a FROG! .. Ive been looking forward to that since i was little i dont know hwy i just like learning new things and disecting things and seeing how a frog works.

My dad PROMISED he would stop drinking and smoking and when i talked to him in Bakersfield while he was in Florida he said he wasnt going to lie and that he has been.....Errr...he upsets me and he doesnt even care. Whatever though, i guess hes starting to get better because he's actually trying to somewhat be there by giving us money, but i cant be bought with money and gifts. I want my dad to be there, i dont want 50 dallors here and there for shoes or 500 for clothes i want to be able to know i have a dad to count on and be there always no matter what. i dont care how many years before he hsnt been there and the conflicts my mother and he have had dont care i want to work on the present and have a future with him.
♥.

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-21T16:42:00

2004-08-21T23:42:54Z

I cut my hair! lol..Then next week im getting the highlights its just i didnt have time to get them today but my hair is like an inch or two past my shoulder and layered i like it! I used to have my hair like this kinda when i was younger but whatever. My mom had this HUGE wedding to go to today i guess its opne of her friends and its an "adult-wedding" they're prolly going to have strippers poppin out of cakes or some shit haha. but yeah. About me and my moms day of spending time. It was kinda just like i said but it was worst. Me and Eric got into a huge fight because after we got home from the grocery store i heard Breanna say "She better not get rid of my dog" and i asked breanna "what dog?" and then Eric pops out of the kitchen, "get out of our conversation, go back to your grandmas" and i was like " i really wish i could eric and i went into my room then i heard him say something about my mom and whatever .. i dont even want to get into the whole thing because im having a good day today and i dont want to think aboiut it. Me and Eric are getting along now though.
I went to little Erics football game it was sooo cool! Little Eric Tackled this one kid then this other one stepped on his hand and for once i felt close to him and i ran out there like a bat outta hell to make sure he was alright. My mom was like ghezz sierra all he ddid was fall and get stepped on he'll live lol. I was worried though!

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-19T18:44:00

2004-08-20T01:44:40Z

Gahh...I have to go home because my mom claims we are going to be spending time together but thats a load of crap. My moms idea of spending time with her is going down to murphys for her and getting dinner and coming home and cooking it with her, or should i say stirring it when shes on the phone.

I know either that will happen or she'll be on the phone with Novella or laying in bed with Eric.Sometimes i just wish that me and my mom could be close because i envy the relationships that katie and tasha and julia share with their parents.

Me and my mom have never really been very close but we used to be closer when she was with Bryan and she wasnt talking to Eric and the video store was not even thought about. We werel ike super close but at least we spent sometime together.

I guess its sorta good that shes with eric because shes finally starting to be a mom like person and finally get a steady job that requires her to look nice but i mean, its kinda too late for her to start to be a mom to me. She has already missed out on my graduations and my award ceremonies and my open house nights and my sports games ive played and my talent shows, and all the many other things i wish she would have wanted to participate in.

I guess i kinda get jealous when i see her doing that stuff with my little sister and little eric because i didnt have that. Even when little eric got in trouble after my mom went to his open house i was jealous of that. When i got bad grades my mom wasnt there to hear about them and be the one to scream at me and tell me i was grounded or that i couldnt play for a week or whatever. No one really told me any of that, up untill her and bryan were fighting i never really got grounded. I mean i got spanked or whatever but i mean that was only after Bryan told her what i did or she got a voice message from my teacher.

Arggh...I want to be close to her. I want to be able to hear her say she loves me and be able to meaningly say it back. I mean because i do love her, I dont love her choices in men or her choices of what she does with her money but i do love my mom. no matter what anyone says i do and always will.

Hell, I even love my dad. No matter how many times hes lied to me and made me promises that he couldnt make or keep i have always loved him and hoped one day that i could be his little girl again like how it was when i was younger and him and my mom were together. I ven miss him after he lied to me last week about syaing he was going to quit drinking and smoking. I even miss his bitch girlfriend Joan that doesnt want me and my dad to be close in fear that he'll go back with my mom.

I guess i kinda missed a childhood that i wish i would have had. MAybe thats why im always so serious about everything. i dont know. I mean while most 5 year olds were starting school and learning how to spell i was in school writting letters to my dad asking him to come back and worrying about if my little sister was eating her banana and apple baby food i picked out for her.

I love breanna, I just regret having to take care of her when i was only a baby myself. No matter what anyone says ill always remember the countless times breanna in my arms rocking her watching powerpuff girls and scooby doo while my mom lay lifeless on the floor from a night of partying.

I kinda miss those times though, because me and breanna got really close. ahh ohh well...

♥.

big butts

2004-08-19T23:04:28Z

Tasha my homie is going to re-do my lay-out!

I like big butts and cannot lie you otha brothas cannot deny, when a girl walks in with an itty bitty waist and a round thing in your face you get sprung! Wanna pull up tuck cause you noticed that but was stuffed. Deep in the jeans she wearing, im hooked and i cant stop staring. oh baby i wanna get witcha and take ya pictura my home boys try to warn me but that butt of yours makes me so horny .. oow rumple-smooth-skin you say you wanna get in my benz well use me, use me cause you aint that average groupy i seen her dancing, to hell with romancin she sweat, shes wet got it going like a turbo vet. im tried of magazines saying flat butts are the thing, take the average black man and ask him that she gotta pack much back.... ohh yessth tash.

♥♥

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-19T00:51:00

2004-08-19T07:52:21Z

okay, cut the crap. Im not going to sugar-coat my journal entries anymore. I mean this is to get my feelings out so im going to say how i really feel. Sorry if it offends you but if it does dont read my journal. Sorry guys....

This weekend i went to katies house and we went to the beach when she came to my house and she spent the night. It was really fun lol. We picked Tasha up when i was at Katies and we all had a lot of fun it was funny we decided to go kaerra and i was soo surprised that tasha went (!!!) ...and we had so much fun tasha is like a natural lol besides her weird things she was saying lmao *Im flexible barbie, watch me flex!* not rele appriote for what was going on lmao... but it was hilarous...katie was a pooper and decided she wanted to get out early but it was okay because we put our clothes back on and talk on the trampoline for a little while. I had a lot of fun it was pretty nice just to be with them again especially after my trip to bakersfield!

oh yeah i had a blast there. It was fun .. too much to all put in here though.

Im getting a verizon phone because pre-paid sucks kfansuym. im getting a motorola cause i think its the cutest thing doesnt have a camera phone and its not a flip but its cute so booya. lol

Im in ♥

I talked to Julia today and i found out that she didnt want to become attached to me becuz katie might get mad. lol I didnt feel the same because i could careless if kaie got mad over that but i was glad to know that she did wanna become better friends. I always wanted to be closer to her anyways.

Katie got the cutest puppy. I want one =(.

Hmm.. im going to re-do my lay-out because this is getting boring to me.

♥ you all

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-19T00:31:00

2004-08-19T07:32:44Z

Me and Julia decided that we hate men. They are dirty, and they're all perverts. So suck it! lol We are now known asthe she-man man haters. lol....yeah thought you guys should know.

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-02T23:59:00

2004-08-03T07:00:57Z

Me and Jesse had sooo much fun!!! ... It was grand!! First we went to chollas lake but we got there like at 7:30 and the park was half way closed but we wanted to see the ducks so we ran down there and stuff and he took a picture of me by this duck and it kept hissing and i was like "JESSE HURRY UP AND TAKE THE PICTURE THE DUCK IS HISSING AT ME!" and right as the flash went of the duck like went in for his attack and jesse was cracking up! so like i think it got a picture of the duck snipping at me and me with this look on my face like OH MY GOD IT GOT ME! that was great lol. I was running with him over to the pier thing and my cell phone fell into this mucky bright green stuff and likeThen the guy told us that we needed to leave because they were closing =( so then we asked if we could go back to his house .. but then hayward and his mom said we were going to cocos for dinner and dessert or whatever and me and jesse sat at our own table and it was just hilarous we had sooo much fun! We were right in front of the bathrooms well they were like right down the hall from us and he went to the bathroom and i wanted to scare him when he came out or whatever so when he came out i flipped my sandel off like to distract him but it hit him in the face!!! I felt soo bad lol but hey i did scare him,right? =D lol...oh hes soo silly ...then when we were eating dinner he threw a piece of mozella stick at me and i ducked and it landed in the lady behind us hair and we were laughing so bad i started tearing..lol It was great! Behin
Then we walked over to wal*mart because he needed batteries for his camera. ehh so much happened but i dont want to explain it all rightnow lol ill write more about it tommorow...

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-02T15:35:00

2004-08-02T22:36:40Z

Katie gets to go to Bakersfield with me and im sooo excited!! We're going to have sooo much fun! We leave Friday but like not till 10 pm at night! we get there at 4:30 in the morning. It doesnt matter me and Katie will prolly stay up all night talking and having fun. We're oging to bring a lot of snacks and stuff and just pig out! lol

I have to start packing to go, Im going to go buy some more shorts later this week so ill have enough to wear there since its going to be really hott.

Me and Jesse are going to hang out today because its going to be the last day ill see him till we go to the Ashlee Simpson thing together. Tasha might go to it he said and that excites me! lol .. I miss all my friend... =( .. oh well ill see them all soon enough.

Im going to burn a million cds so that i have a good music source over the trip and on the bus. If you have any good songs comment and tell me. Im running out of good ones i might just have to console shannnon =) lol.

Yesterday i started mowing the lawn at almost 2 pm and didnt stop till like 5. That grass was like knee high. It was terrible, im not completely done now today i have to go out there and weed the garden and get rid of the grass in there. I wore my bathing suit top so that i could tan and get my stars to show out more.

Oh yeah that reminds me i am sooo sick of guys around this area! I hate them! You cant go anywhere without them staring at you and giving you looks and signals. I swear out here i have guys down to a dime .... You walk by the look at you out of the corner of their eye then when you walk past them they turn around and look at your ass. I think its utterly disgusting, Its just creepy. Yesterday i went in Albertsons to get a water and this guy wakled by looking at me then when i walked past him enough he turned around and looked at my ass and it just pissed me off so bad because in this generation thats all guys care about now. What happened to romantic dates, and guys opening up the doors and pulling out your chair for you?

Anyways though nothing i can do about it. Me and Jesse are going to Chollas lake and then go back to his place and go swimming. I havent been to the lake with him since i was like 5. We barely talk anymopre and it makes me sad because i love him and hes my best friend. Hes like the only guy i can completely understand and feel just like. When we are together its just like old times, we run around and dance in the street and terrorize people and oh boy its just a jolt of fun. I can just be myself around him and tell him my secrets and just go crazy. I remember when i was little i had the bigest crush on him and i wanted to marry him sooo bad. It sounds weird now but then it was like my lifes mission lol. I was always with douglas though and Douglas made fun of him so when i was around douglas i would be mean to him. I was such a mean little kid lol.

Well im going to call Jesse ♥ but then i think ill get online after that.

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-01T13:00:00

2004-08-01T20:02:13Z

gosh do i hate inside joke tellers and stealers....they make me P-I-double S-ed....when will this all end? When all of our group parts?

xxsocalixx @ 2004-08-01T08:10:00

2004-08-01T15:12:18Z

Rashell4Evr: yay!! we're cool 8-)
SolinaBoy: YaY!!

Me and Jesse are cool, haha ... and im sorry to say but your not.

I miss him soooo much! We used to be so close but now we hardly talk. lol ive known him forevvveeerrr....lol ... and we're best friends because hes always been there for me. Im really hypppeer lol. Oh jezz...Jesse is going through more problems...I feel so bad for him hes such a nice guy but like so much around him happens.
Rashell4Evr: so hows burger in the box?
SolinaBoy: Its A Long Story I'll Tell You If You Call Me Tonight
Rashell4Evr: omg more happened?
Rashell4Evr: yeah ill call you tonite
SilunaBoy: No
Rashell4Evr: well then how is it a long story?
SolinaBoy: Ok
SolnaBoy: What Time?
Rashell4Evr: umm ... idk... just keep your phone on .. there we go thats a good idea

well me and jesse still rock&hearts:

Im soooo scared to go on the bus all alone. Its wayy too scurry...I mean i thought it wouold be cool but what if like theres weird ppl there. I would be sooo scared and lost, I think i should just have Nanny Vi come get me. I think im kinda being a wussy about it though.

Would you go?
♥

60 things you probably dont know about me

2004-08-01T14:57:51Z

*Drumroll....*
1{Im scared of cotton}
2{Im scared of people in costumes}
3{I hate it when my bedroom doors open}
4{I dont like to stand in front of windows at night}
5{I hate the color purple}
6{I was born in San Fransico}
7{I love to watch tennis on TV}
8{I watch the news like crazy}
9{Secretly I wish I could be a stunt-woman}
10{My first boyfriend was in a girl-haters club}
11{I used to be in double dutch compitions (JUMP FOR HEART)}
12{I love to listen to channel 90.3 really late on weekends and listen to the old r&b love songs}
13{I always wonder what it would be like to be a bug}
14{I got 4 A's and 1 F on my report card}
15{I love the smell of the morning}
16{I go kaerra (no one will know what this means but a few close friends haha...katie,julia,tasha?julie?)}
17{I wish i was still little}
18{I love peanut butter and jelly}
19{I watch TLC}
20{I hate chalk}
21{Candle lit baths}
22{I like Modays}
23{I hate Sundays}
24{Most my family calls me shelly (dads side and family in MI)}
25{I hate fish but love tuna}
26{The first time i ate sushi was in the back of tashas car with her}
27{I like chili but i pick all the beans out}
28{I love the smell of the beach}
29{Me and Katie have secret plans when we can drive}
30{I dont eat very many vegetables}
31{I like working}
32{I like to clean}
33{I like to go fishing and cut the bait}
34{I got shot during a fake lockdown at school}
35{ I love kids}

By the way .... tasha .. i turned down my bestest friend ... to go with you!

SolinaBoy: Have U Seen A Cinderella Story Yet?
Rashell4Evr: no i promised i would go with Tasha

xxsocalixx @ 2004-07-31T23:13:00

2004-08-01T06:15:15Z

I went shopping at the mall and i got 3 new bikinis! im dsoo excited lol now katie, I will always have plenty of extras if i cant find one (: Ill always have another!! lol ... surprisingly im kinda hyper. lol I miss Katie... I was thinking about her today and I wrote her letter and i almost started crying because i miss being with her all the time. BEfore I moved we always were together and i miss that! shes my coolest homie bim bomie... (wtf, okay i think im extremely hyper, im making up words now).

Im going to Bakersfield on Friday YAY!!! lol im sooo excited. I miss my love brother sooo much!!! My dad is sending us each 500 dallors for school shopping. Catch is Nanny Vi has to take us lol but still whatever at least hes making an effort :P. I love shopping and I think its going to be awesome going with my brother because i get to help him!! Whooahh...so much fun. Im going to stay for like a week maybe more though...tons ta do!

OMG, how could i forget? ...When i was shopping, we stopped by Macys and like this guy was following me around but he seemed like mentally ill and i think he was trying to talk to me but i kept switching aisles lol .. I didnt want to talk to him. I know im sooo mean but still he was SCURY! ....lol ... okay well yeah

im really hyper y'all lol ... katie a memory!!...
I LIKE BIG BUTTS AND I CANNOT LIE, YOU OTHA BROTHERS CANT DENY WHEN A GIRL WALKS IN WITH A LITTLE BITY WASTE AND A ROUND THING IN YOUR FACE YOU GET SPRUNG.

xxsocalixx @ 2004-07-31T04:58:00

2004-07-31T11:58:57Z

I just got done cleaning my bathroom from top to bottom.... I took everything out and organized it and everything i scrubbed the floor by hand and even washed the walls....I think im offical a crackhead. lol I mean you always see those drug addicts cleaning everything or one day their house is brown then the next its green lol. Im kinda worse though lol i started at 2:30 in the morning (: !!

Im going to see my brother soon! I ♥♥♥ him, I havent seen him for soo long and we hardly get to talk...Im like estatic.

After I get home from going to visit him im going to L.A with my moms best friend who lives there...shes a lawyer and we're going to go to the mall and stuff and check things out .. iunno she invited me so hey, never turn down a paid vacation (: lol.

Me and Tasha have yet to see A Cinderella Story....I cant wait till we see it though, if we keep waiting we may have to see it on DVD haha.

I think im coming down with a cold .... ): ...Im starting to have a cough and my lungs hurt.

I got glasses! I guess im sorta excited even though they messed up like made on them, (they have to re-do them).

Facts ...

2004-07-31T11:46:39Z

****FACTS ABOUT ME****

[bold all of the true]

01. I have a cell phone.
02. I'm obsessed with new things.
03. I'm the youngest child. From my mom and dad.
04. I am a shopoholic.
05. I love my gauged earrings.
06. I love wearing a lot of black eyeliner.
07. I love Daquires. (well..virgin ones that is)
08. I love the weekends.
09. I can't live without lipgloss.
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags (Coach, Burberry, Louis Vuitton).
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
17. I love the Backsreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I am a person.
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I start school on Jan 4th or 5th.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. My dreams are bizarre.
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I've seen Shes all That at least 50 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I love Charmed.
32. Sometimes I cry for no reason.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late.
34. I procrastinate. (MAJOR..!)
35. Winter is my favorite season.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I was smarter.
39. I am the hottest bachelor [ seein how i am a man! ].
40. I have a lot of drama.
41. No one knows my full story of my life.
42. I love my hair.
43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I love the beach.
45. I have had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. I can't control my emotions.
48. I can't wait till New Year's.
49. I love the show 'Rich Girls'.
50. I love my friends.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure sometimes.
53. I have had a broken bone.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love my laptop.
56. I love guys that play in a band.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person (at times).
59. I love to dance.
60. I love to sing.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous very easily. Boys and friends.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I hate when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love playdoh.
69. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction.
71. I love high school. (Not in it yet)
72. I have a talent of sweet talking my way out of things.

73. I don't drink enough to get drunk.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I don't sew.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.
78. I love the Olsen twins.
79. I'm gonna try out for the softball team.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I hate liars.
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Bam Margera is AWESOME.
84. I love the smell of fresh laundry.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums. [I do play..]
89. I hate the feeling of failure.
90. I am still a virgin.
91. I would love to have my own fashion line.
92. I can be quite selfish.
93. I still act like a little kid sometimes.
94. Above all, I despise dishonesty.
95. I can stay on the computer forever.
96. I love music.
97. I wish I were more motivated when it comes to school.
98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have problems letting go of people.
100. I hate the feeling of being alone.

xxsocalixx @ 2004-07-30T18:29:00

2004-07-31T01:30:22Z

LOL. I made a new friend, shes taught me a lot(lmao) Shannon...what in the world would i do without her? I would still be listening to Stay Tonight by Matchbook Romance... You rock Shan!! ♥thanks!

I miss Katie sooo much, shes only been gone for like barely even 24 hours lol. We made promises to write eachother daily. I wonder if that little brat remembered :P ...lol well i am.

The night before she left we talked on the phone till 3 am!! lol it was fruckin awesome! lol towards the end i almost fell asleep but then she woke me up and then i was like hyped on meds it was great. Yeah, I always miss her and shes my bestestest friend for everrr...♥♥

xxsocalixx @ 2004-07-30T02:48:00

2004-07-30T09:48:31Z

Dear Somebody,

I love you, but do you care? You throw my love to the ground like a crumpled up piece of paper, but i take this rejection and mend my heart together for yet another crumpling. You ARE my addiction, my shooting star, my first real love.

Yet, this doesnt feel like love. You are very wishy washy in every way. Your once love and pretty words turn to hate and ugliness...I dont understand...one day you love me and the next you love another.

I remember that one day we talked for 3 hours and you told me someone reminded you of a song .. I thought it might be me but it wasnt. It as the exact person who fills your heart with pain and suffering after I have mended it. But you keep going back to that person, Your too forgiving and too understanding and it sickens me.

Another day passes and i miss your absentness from my heart and i linger once again for the pain you put me through.

♥♥♥,
Your perfect mistake

xxsocalixx @ 2004-07-30T02:20:00

2004-07-30T09:21:01Z

Dear Somebody,
I dont need you. Go away.

A chat with a Smart Child

2004-07-25T03:07:07Z

Rashell4Evr: whats my name?
SmarterChild: You're CrackHead.
Rashell4Evr: Whats ur name?
SmarterChild: My name is SmarterChild.
Rashell4Evr: sounds hott
SmarterChild: What?
Rashell4Evr: ur hott
SmarterChild: Glad you think so!
Rashell4Evr: why is my name Crackhead?
SmarterChild: Well, it's a long story.
Rashell4Evr: why is ur name smarterchild? are you stupid?
SmarterChild: No.
Rashell4Evr: ur not very modest eh?
SmarterChild: Maybe. Tough to say.

lol even he knows my nickname kt..lmao

xxsocalixx @ 2004-07-23T17:56:00

2004-07-24T00:56:23Z

http://img78.photobucket.com/albums/v344/SierraRashell/Advisor.jpg

Okay, everyone wishes that they looked like someone famous because "oh they're sooo pretty and they just have the perfect blah blah blah" let me cut the bullshit...(rofl)

Micheal (child molestor) Jackson...
Without makeup and touch ups
http://img78.photobucket.com/albums/v344/SierraRashell/mjackson2.jpg
With...
http://img78.photobucket.com/albums/v344/SierraRashell/mjackson1.jpg

Pamela Anderson...
Without...
http://img78.photobucket.com/albums/v344/SierraRashell/anderson1.jpg
With...
http://img78.photobucket.com/albums/v344/SierraRashell/anderson2.jpg

And for all you Jhonny-Depp- hes- so- sexy- lovers
The painful truth....
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/jd2.jpg
In your dreams ...
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/jd1.jpg

Theres a ton more...next time you look in the mirror and judge yourself think twice and read this journal entry again...

More:http://www.ebaumsworld.com/celeb.html

INFECT THE TRUTH...PASS IT ON!

QUIZ FUN!

2004-07-23T15:53:13Z

Interesting.....

You are a true nature girl!

Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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SOUNDS HOTT.....

You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.

What kind of kiss are you?
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Raver Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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OH YESTHH TASHA KNOWS IT! =D

BEAUTIFUL ICE PRINCESS/PRINCE .You need distance
between you and your partner in your
relationship. You are very difficult to get.
You have big requirements and this one you love
must try hard to get you. But after she/he melt
your heart she/he will be the most happy person
in the world. You need someone who shoes you
that you are special and it makes you feel
good to see that you are loved. She/He shall
know that you could easily get another
girl/boyfriend but you wont as long as you
love him. when she/he hurts you you will hurt
him too, but in general you dont get hurt. If
your partner cheated you ,you would react cold
and immediately (try to) forget him
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.

~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
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WHAT THE FRINGlES?!

Barbie Got Back! Go you! You're the closest thing
ever to a true black Barbie. Shake that fat
ass of yours.

If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
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IM NOT FAT IM BIGBONED...TASHA IM TURNING GHETTO AGAIN *sirens* WATCH OUT,MOVE OUT DA WAY!!! >:-( < bobs ghetto too...

*Don't Flatter Yourself SweetHeart..*